Roll the dice and let the game begin…

March 7, 2006

I drank too much wine whilst watching the Matador last night - the sort of film that came about on the back of the idea of James Bond being a gruff, sarcastic, hard drinking, perverted hitman who just doesn’t give a shit and having him make friends with some geeky tourist - sort of film that needs a lot more going on than this to make you watch it all.

Now, if they were on a plane and someone released a crate of snakes in the middle of the flight, I would’ve been hooked all the way to the end.

I woke this morning feeling pretty sickly and that feeling hasn’t left me all day - especially when I tried watching Domino which seems to have been filmed by a man on rollerskates.

When you are feeling like this contemplating your future isn’t advisable - the letter arrived around 9.30am and after reading it I think it’s safe to say that the best thing to do is engineer a move outta here and over to Holland.

My boss outlines a few incidents that have angered him, talks of how he is not impressed with my attitude or work so far and makes clear there’ll be no salary review until 2007 - that when he retires in 5 or 10 years time he cannot foresee passing the business into my care unless my attitude changes - he asks to wipe the slate clean and start again upon my return.

Don’t be fooled by that last sentence - the slate never gets wiped clean with this guy - he holds a grudge like no one I’ve ever met before - I could take him to task on every point he makes, however, I figure that the intention of much of what he says is set out to achieve two things:

First is to anger me - to get me to answer back point by point - get into another argument from which there can be no retreat - make it easy to bring about the termination of my contract

Second is to silence me - that I accept his words and outlook and return to the fold and play the sheep and don’t open my mouth for 5 to 10 years until he retires.

It seems you can’t win in situations like these - harsh words and confrontation with will just set up a scenario of being enemies against each other working for the same company - doing nothing consigns me to being a drone for ever more.

So you must plan you’re exit carefully - the only way to any move across the water has to seem like it was his idea all along - main thing I learned working in Asia - get the keys to what you want by getting those in possesion to think it was their idea to give them to you in the first place.

The dice rolls...

Spo | March 7, 2006