March 6, 2006
Lets see what Tomorrow brings….
I thought I’d be Ok for work again today - but walking around or sitting up for any kind of extended amount of time kicks in on the pain front - in the end the doctors signed me off, everyone is telling me to take the week and that insurance doesn’t cover you if you go back to work against doctors orders.
All makes sense - but still, I suppose the reason I’m not at work at the moment is because I don’t really want to be there.
This isn’t an unusual state of mind for many folk - I appreciate - but then again I’ve been lucky enough to end up in a profession where a lot of the places I’ve ended up I’d of gladly gone to without the need for paying - working here in the UK office again - it wasn’t supposed to be a step back - but everything so far has made it seem that way.
The last day I was there - Friday 17th - my boss and I had a huge falling out - an argument that kind of set out our current states of play - one that, before I worked over in Vietnam 3 years ago, I would of backed down from and done as told - but now feel as though I’ve done enough on my own to have a voice worth listening to and to be treated with a little bit more respect.
Paradoxically I am at this stage in my career thanks to the initial backing and training from the man I was arguing with.
I don’t think I said anything out of order or over the top - grand scheme of life it could of perhaps been a subject that I could of let go - bigger battles to be fought and all that - however, to have let it go would of said more than actually having the argument in the end - and the silent words unspoken would of echoed for a lot longer - and they wouldn’t be speaking for me.
So to today - as our actual spoken conversations are always strained what ever the time of year, I emailed my boss to tell him that I’d be off another week as the doctor had instructed - that the scar was still in a bad way and I can only do so much, thanked him for his understanding so far - he replied saying that was fine and take the time - that there was also a letter waiting for me upon my return - that perhaps it would be better to send it now and let me mull it over - give it some thought - surely not a sacking as so much an acknowledgement that things are not working
So now there is a letter in the mail - what it says could very well determine my future - a very possible ”So now what?” situation....
All makes sense - but still, I suppose the reason I’m not at work at the moment is because I don’t really want to be there.
This isn’t an unusual state of mind for many folk - I appreciate - but then again I’ve been lucky enough to end up in a profession where a lot of the places I’ve ended up I’d of gladly gone to without the need for paying - working here in the UK office again - it wasn’t supposed to be a step back - but everything so far has made it seem that way.
The last day I was there - Friday 17th - my boss and I had a huge falling out - an argument that kind of set out our current states of play - one that, before I worked over in Vietnam 3 years ago, I would of backed down from and done as told - but now feel as though I’ve done enough on my own to have a voice worth listening to and to be treated with a little bit more respect.
Paradoxically I am at this stage in my career thanks to the initial backing and training from the man I was arguing with.
I don’t think I said anything out of order or over the top - grand scheme of life it could of perhaps been a subject that I could of let go - bigger battles to be fought and all that - however, to have let it go would of said more than actually having the argument in the end - and the silent words unspoken would of echoed for a lot longer - and they wouldn’t be speaking for me.
So to today - as our actual spoken conversations are always strained what ever the time of year, I emailed my boss to tell him that I’d be off another week as the doctor had instructed - that the scar was still in a bad way and I can only do so much, thanked him for his understanding so far - he replied saying that was fine and take the time - that there was also a letter waiting for me upon my return - that perhaps it would be better to send it now and let me mull it over - give it some thought - surely not a sacking as so much an acknowledgement that things are not working
So now there is a letter in the mail - what it says could very well determine my future - a very possible ”So now what?” situation....
Spo | March 6, 2006
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