July 28, 2006
Instinct - every Mother F****ing time…..
Wake at 7.20am to Razorlights Stumble and Fall stagger my way through the getting my shit together process - think I can get away with shaving a day later to save time - piece of toast for brekkie - no orange left, damn it, water will do - shirt for work- shirt for work - damn it - get the iron.
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Half heartedly working away I turned to flick the morning news on from across the room - as I did I brushed the side of the iron against the right side of my chest - just a second - always seems such a long time in situations such as this - when your body figures out that molten hot ‘aint ice cold - initially it’s all the same kind of spark - that sting - that moment of instintcive thought that ponders so - that second - that second was enough:
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MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!!
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Instant reaction was to shout the above - as it always is when ever I end up adding another scar to the collection - skidding across the road on my arm and knee after the scooter incident in Thailand - falling off the bonnet of my friends car pretending to be Teen-Wolf - car door slamming on my shin - jumping up the stairs and ripping my stitches after appendicitis - grinding my right side on the gravel falling off my BMX Raleigh Stylus - stabbing myself in the hand using a knife to make a coke can bong - all the many times I’ve forgotten I was sun burnt and then have been painfully reminded - even burning my hand on the steam from a kettle while making a cup of tea… -Motherfucker!!!!-
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Every sprained ankle, every stubbed toe, every door I’ve walked into, every bed I’ve fallen out of, every surface I’ve touched to find out if it was hot or not, every stripper that has dug her heels in too hard..... ”Mothefucker!!!!”
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An instant reactionary phrase that has enough satisfying syllables to allow you to truly spell out your pain - you can drag the words out as the fire slowly ignites and you realise how bad you’ve actually hurt yourself, you can spit them out faster than a machine gun for that jumping short sharp shock and you can satisfyingly roar it at full volume when you’ve gone and seriously stacked it - ”Motherfucker!!!!” is the ultimate swear-word for every type of disastrously self inflicted injury....
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(I wonder what I said when I hadn’t learned to swear??)
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Half heartedly working away I turned to flick the morning news on from across the room - as I did I brushed the side of the iron against the right side of my chest - just a second - always seems such a long time in situations such as this - when your body figures out that molten hot ‘aint ice cold - initially it’s all the same kind of spark - that sting - that moment of instintcive thought that ponders so - that second - that second was enough:
.
MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!!
.
Instant reaction was to shout the above - as it always is when ever I end up adding another scar to the collection - skidding across the road on my arm and knee after the scooter incident in Thailand - falling off the bonnet of my friends car pretending to be Teen-Wolf - car door slamming on my shin - jumping up the stairs and ripping my stitches after appendicitis - grinding my right side on the gravel falling off my BMX Raleigh Stylus - stabbing myself in the hand using a knife to make a coke can bong - all the many times I’ve forgotten I was sun burnt and then have been painfully reminded - even burning my hand on the steam from a kettle while making a cup of tea… -Motherfucker!!!!-
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Every sprained ankle, every stubbed toe, every door I’ve walked into, every bed I’ve fallen out of, every surface I’ve touched to find out if it was hot or not, every stripper that has dug her heels in too hard..... ”Mothefucker!!!!”
.
An instant reactionary phrase that has enough satisfying syllables to allow you to truly spell out your pain - you can drag the words out as the fire slowly ignites and you realise how bad you’ve actually hurt yourself, you can spit them out faster than a machine gun for that jumping short sharp shock and you can satisfyingly roar it at full volume when you’ve gone and seriously stacked it - ”Motherfucker!!!!” is the ultimate swear-word for every type of disastrously self inflicted injury....
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(I wonder what I said when I hadn’t learned to swear??)
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When my numbers up, It’s fair to say we all know what my last words will be.
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Having said that, I don’t want it written on my gravestone.
Spo | July 28, 2006
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