God Damn It……

September 2, 2005

I woke at 2pm today - felt terrible - looked around - I was at home - how did that happen? - should never of driven - promised I wouldn’t ever do that again no matter if it was a lot or a couple - but it was exceptional circumstances - I had to leave

I think I drank the majority of a bottle of Jameson’s whisky at Robins (my friend, but also my boss) - he was talking up front and frank about myself, my time here and my future - I said some fairly strong things - some home fucking truths - whisky gave me courage - but I was still right - he isn’t the best teacher and this country sucks on so many levels and perhaps that is why I didn’t put the effort into staying here and jumped at the first opportunity of a transfer - I don’t believe in anything I’m doing here.

it was a pretty severe argument in the early hours

I don’t know what our friendship will be like now - sad that - something’s are better left unsaid perhaps - but honesty is important in friendships too - shit - I feel bad that it happened - I’ve slept all day - man whisky fucks you the fuck up after the crime

and then I found I’d dropped my new 60GB I-pod in a pint of water and now it doesn’t work.

Spo | September 2, 2005